Its been a while eh?

Alright. Sorry. I haven't written. Forever. Deal with it. I guess I should catch you up. Practicum went well. Ended April 29. Cried on the 30th. More details about the 30th coming up. I experienced much success in my practicum and I am confident I will make a great teacher. I'll have to continue blogging to keep you posted on my new teaching position. I will be teaching grade two. More about that in a minute. Okay, so I finnished my practicum, and did well. The last two weeks of practicum were a bit harry as my grandmother passed away and my mother was in the hospital, very ill. So that's going on, I finish my practicum, on the 30th of April, I lose my roommates who have become my best friends, my boyfriend moved back to his hometown, my grandma has just died and my mom is in intensive care PLUS, I miss my students- I go to work at Staples and then send me home 'cause I keep bursting into tears. Up to that point I had managed to just persivere and not think about everyone leaving me...but standing at my till it all hit me hard. Now I'm sure you're thinking "Come on Pinky, SUCK IT UP!" Okay, you're right. I spend May and June moping and sulking around my new apartment (oh yeah, I had to move during all this too.) Anyway, its July and I'm feeling better but I still miss everyone.

In the beginning of May I went to Ct's cousin's wedding. It was awesome, I met a lot of his family (I was even included in their family picture!) After that weekend though, things started to fade. In fact I believe the phrase I've used before is that "it all started going in the crapper." We talked on the phone...sometimes...email...sometimes...I felt like I was doing most of the contacting though. I went through some personal health issues at this time, that I would have liked to share with him, but I didn't want to on the phone. I knew there was a problem for sure when I stayed at his house at the end of May and we were cuddling and I wispered "Can I keep You?" and his response was "You can hold me for a while." He didn't mean to hurt me by it, but the fact is, he used to say "You can keep me." Anyway, we pretended for a couple more weeks...he kept saying he'd come visit, and then things would come up. .....to be continued....