Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad, Day...

Actually, it wasn't that bad. I just had one bad experience. I don't really want to talk about the experience 'cause I've already put it past me. Now, in the aftermath, I am just learning to deal with the fundamental issue that caused the problem in the first place. And that issue, my friends is self esteem. I need to remember that my worth as a person is not wrapped up in my ability to be perfect, or even in my ability to be a teacher. I have to remember that constructive criticism is not an attack on me as a person. I need to not allow people to make me feel dumb or stupid. The fact of the matter is, I will only feel stupid when I let myself feel stupid. I am a bit of a perfectionist, okay, I'll admit it. I don't mean to be, and I certainly am not in every aspect of my life. But in the areas where I am, I am very touchy and EXTREMELY sensitive. I set my goals so high that I forget sometimes that I am still learning. I said something very wise today (I don't know if I've heard it from somewhere else, or if its an original thought...) and that was "If I was done learning, I'd be dead." That is very true you know. I plan on learninig throughout my life. And in my life, as the title of this blog suggests, I am trying to learn how to live. When I finally get it all figured out, I would assume that God will call me back, after all what is the point of going on if I am not learning new things? Anyway, I was just painfully reminded today that I am not perfect, I am still learning and that that does not make me a stupid person or any less of a person. It makes me human, which, by the way - I am very happy to be.