I'm done!

I'm done, I'm done, I'm done, I'm done, I'm finnished this semester!! (Insert Happy Dance here).

Poetry Entry

I am Canadian

Walking alone,
In my Nehru Jacket,
Complete with
Bouffant hairdo.

“Sock it to me”
“I wanna fall in love,
American Style”
She screams.

“Hey baby,
Looking for a date?”
“Ed the pimp
Purpchase my french nails.”

Rebels lead to suicide and
At the Orange Tooty Fruity
Topless bar,
Souls are for sale.

Its all about,
Lawrance of Arabia,
And dreaming my dreams
American Style.

Only one more to go...

Okay, so I've got one exam left and this nightmare of a semester (okay, maybe not nightmare...there was lots of good stuff) will be over. It is an exam on Shakespeare. The format of the exam kind of freaks me out but C came over and we studied together which was great because we have opposite notes. What I mean by that is that where I have notes on something, she did not and where she had notes I did not, so together we had fabulous notes. We read stuff aloud and discussed the passages "thematic significance" which was really helpful. I am feeling a lot more confident about the exam, we also figured out that we both don't really need to pass the exam in order to pass the course. That's definately handy. Less pressure that way. Of course, it would be nice to get a great grade (and Lord know's I could use it) but passing is most important. I had a great (albeit slow) day at work today and I saw S and my heart fluttered a little. I gotta be careful with that one 'cause I am getting close to being in a same situation as I was in with HIM. (If you're just tuning in, you'll need to check out November posts for more info on HIM). I think one of my biggest issues there is that I have difficulty seeing faults in the guys I crush on. In reference to that I am going to include a poem I wrote a while back based on William Carlos William's poem, The Red Wheelbarrow. For reference sake I will also include the text to that poem. Here goes:

Romance

So much depends
Upon

Moonlight and
Beer

Changing your
Vision

Forgetting I am
Human

The Red Wheelbarrow
William Carlos Williams

So much depends
Upon

A red wheel
barrow

Glazed with rain
Water

Beside the white
Chickens

yep...I got nothing

Okay, so I didn't manage to pull an all-nighter, I fell asleep at my computer and therefore moved to my bed for a short nap and voila...woke up four hours later. Oops. I don't know that those four hours would really have helped me anyway, not with me being so tired. SO...I wrote the exam this morning and basically I am praying I passed. I don't know, it could really go either way. It was really hard and I was feeling really bad after writing it. Like I just go beat up or something. Failing that course will put my life plan on a different track for sure...so, since there's nothing I can do about it now, I guess I just move on. There is no sense freaking out about something I can't change. After my exam I went over to B's to see if she had left yet, she had not. So I helped her out a bit and her and E and M got out by 2pm. I am sure going to miss them. After that, I went to bed and had a really solid nap. Ooh. That felt good. I woke up, still feeling blah though so I decided to cook myself some super and then go to a movie. Sometimes its good to go on a date with yourself. I certainly enjoyed it. I went to see the new Adam Sandler movie "Spanglish" which was amazing. It had so many levels and issues, and I felt like I really understood the characters you know? I cried a little, lauged a little, and just plain enjoyed it. If I can drag my ass out of bed in the morning I'm gonna go get my hair cut, 'cause that always makes me feel better and then I'm off to work. I am excited about that, 'cause I really love working at Staples. There's really great people there. Then, the plan is to study for my Shakespeare exam on Monday - I don't want to be in a position on Sunday night where I feel like I gotta cram, oh and I should probably do some laundry too. Need clean socks and all that jazz. Its a good feeling to know that for better or worse, this semester will be over Monday at noon. Yipee!! I learned a lot this semester and wouldn't change the crappy stuff for all my lessons learned and people I've met and fun I've had. Its been great. I'm really happy, albeit slightly stressed about exams. The important part though is I'm happy. I hope you are too.

Hmmmm...

Just doing a little study break, or should I be honest and say procrastination. 'cause that's what it really is isn't it? I'm beginning to wonder if that is a lesson I just won't ever learn. After all, if I had not procrastinated in the first place I would probably be in bed right now, trying to get a good healthy night's sleep before my exam in the morning. Ha! I don't think that has happened yet this semester. Anyway, B was just over dropping off her left over food since she's moving and boy was that a pleasant surprise. I had figured I wouldn't be seeing her again until June but Tada she appeared and bearing food nonetheless. (Is nonetheless a word? or three?) I digress...as per my usual...she reminded me that I needed to write about our limo ride yesterday. That's right. We got to ride in a limo home from getting our groceries. Let me start at the begining. So last night was M (B's son)'s Christmas concert at his school. It was fabulous. Children K-3 singing Christmas Carols...one of the children got a bit nervous/excited and puked all over the stage but otherwise it went off without a hitch. M was fabulous and I know B must be very proud at how well he sang and how well he sat still while the other groups were preforming. I see a stage in his future B!! So after the concert, we go to the grocery store 'cause we were both out of a few things (The only meat I had was some fish B had given me and I had been eating so much of that its a wonder I don't have gills!) so we grab our groceries and decide to take a cab home 'cause we didn't want to haul the groceries back to our place (its not far, but it was cold, windy and I hate carrying bags of groceries). We call the cab, and wait, and wait, and wait a little more. And OMG!! (insert Janice voice there) a limo pulls up. Talk about riding in style. Nothing but the best for us eh? Anyway, there you go B, I wrote about our awesome night. I am so happy I spent it with you, we have so many great memories...the casino, your birthday, monopoly, tequilla part two, THAT NIGHT, swimming, laundry, wings at the duke, Shrek like a bizillion times, msn-ing etc. Like Monica said "Its the end of an era" But, you're moving on to bigger and better things and eventually so am I. We will MSN lots and lots, we have this blog, the telephone and our visits planned...sniff, sniff...at least its not "No more Joey and Chan-Chan-man, no more J and C" 'cause we will always be friends!!!

If I only had a brain...

I look like I just lost my best friend. Well, she isn't lost, she's just moving - to another province. I am going to miss her so much. The only silver linning I can find (and we must always try to find that) is that because she is going to be living in another province, I will have to go visit her there. And maybe she will come visit me in my hometown. I felt super bad 'cause I was only able to help her with her moving/cleaning for a couple of hours but I was stupid and barely attended this class this semester and now I gotta ace the exam tomorrow. I won't be sleeping tonight but I can sleep tomorrow after the exam. And then study for the next one on Monday. Bloody Hell? Will this semester ever end? It feels like one big all-nighter. The good news is, that I got three of my final grades back already, and I got two A-'s and a C. The C kinda stung a bit 'cause I shoulda done better, but that is like 70% which really is nothing to sneeze at. Those A-'s are what are going to keep me floating this semester 'cause I can't get anything higher than a C in two of my remaining classes and I'm still hoping for B in my Shakespeare class. Anyway...If I wanna pass my exam (and the course!) tomorrow, then I best get down to the studying...I miss you B and hope all is well with you in your new life. Remember - keep smiling!!! Once life is at its worst, it can only get better...

I'm off to see the wizard...

Well, it begins I guess. I have an exam this afternoon and I'm not really prepared for it. Luckily, its not until two so I have some time to cram some knowledge into my brain before it. I will however have to ditch on a study group for Friday's exam and unfortunately that would have been really helpful. Oh well. I guess I never really learned that procrastination lesson. Will I ever? Probably not...unless I fail a bunch of courses this semester which really shouldn't happen. Anyway, the good news is that the stuff I'm studying for this afternoon is pretty interesting, so at least I won't be bored. Better run! :)

I can do this...

Okay, so tomorrow morning - oh wait, its after midnight, so this morning at 6:30am I gotta get up and take the wonderful transit to my school so that I can be there before 8:15am. Nice. Anyway, I get to observe my grade five class in action and see what I'm up against. I am supper excited and spent this evening getting a start on some of my planning. I came up with my rules and expectations, procedures, a "getting to know you" activity and started planning my Wall of Weird. Since I know y'all don't know what that is, let me explain. The Wall of Weird is this super sponge activity I invented in my first practicum. Basically, I change the topic each week and have information up for the kids to look at and activities and related questions for them to do. That way, if they finish their work early, they have something fun and educational to work on PLUS I don't get bombarded with the "What do I do now..." question, PLUS since I have some gifted and talented students, there is a start to my accomadations for them! yay...I love it, and my students in my last class loved it too. Anyhoo...since I have to be up in a couple of hours, I best get me some shut-eye. Good night!

Evil Nurses, EKGs, and X-Rays

So it looks like I did not sprain my ankle...it is still sore but I think with some rest and relaxation it should be up to snuff by Monday. Whew. Last night my friend B took me to the Big H (her name for the hospital) against my will (well not really, but I wasn't too eager - not a fan of doctors). The hospital was concerned that I had fainted because I was unable to tell them any good reason why I fell. So, after the nurse kicked, that's right, kicked my foot out of the way so she could get close to the blood pressure machine thingy, she left and this god of a doctor walked in. He was gorgeous. Tall, dark hair, considerate, kind...sigh. Anyway, he decided to do some tests on me to check for diabetes and check my heart 'cause apparently my heart rate was high when the nurse took it (I'm sure it had nothing to do with the fact that she had kicked my foot 2 seconds prior - note extreme sarcasm). So this freaks me out. My mom had a heart attack last year and we have history of heart issues and the fact that I am morbidly obese (that is the correct medical term by the way) gives me lots of risk factors. So, here I am, in pain, petrified of doctors and hospitals (although willing to admit that this doctor was awesome) and being told that they are checking my heart. I'm thinking - wow--wouldn't it be funny if there was something seriously wrong with my heart and the reason I found out was because my good friend dragged my ass into the horrible big H? Not laughing funny, fate funny. Anyway, nurse beotch came in and did my glucose test and my EKG (ECG?) and had me in this hospital gown that doesn't fit right and sends me to x-ray where I have to walk through this room place with a bunch of men (EMTs) in it with my back open to the wind (still had my pants on, but still!) and then get the x-ray and then walk back through. Kind of embarrassing, plus I think my mascara was all over my face because I had been crying 'cause I'm afraid of hospitals, especially ones where they tell me I may have something wrong with my heart. Bloody Hell! Luckly, nothing was wrong with my heart, glucose was normal and my ankle was not broken. Gorgeous Doctor made me feel better and congratualted me on the positive steps I have been making to lose weight. He was so cool...too bad I didn't get his name... B was there for me tonight though. I am so glad to have her as a friend 'cause I never would have gone without her and she calmed me down when I told her what I had been through. She even made me laugh - she said I should have got gorgeous doctor to kiss my ankle better...I'm thinking its not my ankle I wish he would kiss - bad pinky!!! :)

Oh crap...

I may or may not have sprained my ankle...I definately strained it though...bloody hell...it freakin' hurts! This morning for no apparent reason (no ice, no gravel, my shoes were tied up) I fell and twisted my ankle. I don't know why, I just went down like a ton of potatoes...I don't even remember falling, just landing on the ground...which makes me wonder if I fainted...does anyone know what it feels like to faint? How would I know if I did?

Now where was I?

Oh yes, meeting my teacher. Well, my friend B very kindly drove me to the school where I was to attend a staff meeting and I arrived at this beautiful school with a lot of history. I have to be a bit guarded when giving out info about the school and the people there for confidentiality reasons, so sorry about that....oh crap, I gotta run...going swimming with B and her son M...will post later...

Are you ready?

Well, I haven't written anything of significance over the last week, which we just won't really mention because its over and I get it...procrastination does not pay and I will be the one paying when I get those grades back. So, good things...Thursday night out with B was AWESOME! We went to the casino which was a first for me and I played $10, won it back plus $3, played the 10 again and won it back plus another 3.75 so, still have the 10 plus 6.75 more! Yeah, I can see how that could be addicting for some people. After that we went to the Cheescake Cafe for supper, and then to the Roadhouse to start B's drinking and dancing (it may be important to note that I was completely sober for this night). Then we picked up C, and went to K & V's...hung there for about 45min and then brought V to Spin with us. At spin, I met two very nice Management majors, we flirted and danced but nothing special. Who am I kidding, to me that was special. When we finnished there we went to Studio 54 (brought K too) and danced there. By this time B and C were both extrememly intoxicated - it was funny. After that, we went back to K & v's where we went over to their neighbors for a bit and C ended up kissing some guy - no tongue she insists...but appartently very soft lips. :) We took off at this point and headed to Tim Hortons 'cause I still had a paper to write and needed some coffee. B was teasing the guy at the till and C dropped her cigarette down her shirt. It was definately one of the funnniest momments of the night. After Tim's we started heading home but I missed the exit so we ended up in Coalhurst where C and B may or may not have peed in the school playground and that may or may not have been my idea...(insert blush here). After that, we gassed up the car and went home. I finnished my paper and went to class etc. B very kindly gave me a ride to the school where I was to do my practicum. More on that tomorrow...'cause I'm tired and need to go to sleep. Tune in to find out how Monopoly night went tonight as well...

Later

I'm going out, but I will come back to this later today...

Freudian Inventory Results

Oral (73%) you appear to be overly passive and dependent, wanting things to be given to you instead of working for them. Anal (36%) you appear to be overly lacking in self control and organization, and possibly have a compulsive need to defy authority. If you are too scatterbrained, you will not develop much as a person as you will habitually switch paths before you ever learn anything. Phallic (20%) you appear to have negative issues regarding sexuality and/or have an uncertain sexual identity. Latency (66%) you appear to be afraid or averse to present or future real world responsibilities, this will only make your inevitable transition more difficult, so learn to deal with the real world. Genital (30%) you appear to have a conventional, closeminded, and regressive outlook on life. Change is an inevitable and positive part of life, learn to contribute to it, not fear it or oppose it

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So much to say...

Well, I finnished all my work, had an amazing night out with my friends and met with the teacher whose class I will be taking over (1/2 time) for my practicum in January. I have so many things to say but I think the wise thing to do is take a night off of typing and get some good solid sleep. Most importanly I want to say that I am truly blessed to have amazing friends like B and without her, I never would have made it through my week. I have learned many lessons this week and discovered a lot about myself. Stay tuned for tomorrow's entry when I can describe it all in more detail, but warning...it will probably be a long entry!

Sigh....

It's all come to a screeching halt...due the droopy-eyelid syndrome, I came home from the University. I still have one paper to hand in...it is totally late so I don't care any more and am just going to go out and have a good time. I already wrote the silly thing anyway...the computer gremlins got it. So...now that I have had three glorious hous of sleep I am ready to put on my dancin' shoes and my good bra and celebrate my friend B's birthday like nobodies business! Yipee!! Horrah!!

Yawn

I just wanted to check in. I am so tired that my blinks are getting longer and longer...must get sleep.

Can't type any more.

Light

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel! It is 4:35am and I have my presentation in 4 hours. The only real glitch that I've run into is that I left some VERY important papers at Staples when I was photocopying so I may have to take a cab to grab them before the presentation...here's hoping that they are there!!!

I won't cry...I promise

Okay so to start off my day...slept for 4 hours last night which is 4 hours longer than I should have considering all the work I have to do...baked my friend a birthday cake which thankfully turned out because last's night trial did not...showered and brushed my teeth while the cake was baking, pulled the cake out of the oven, packed my bookbag and got dressed for school. Removed cake from pan, covered to cool and busted my butt to school. Trying to put the last 25% of my english paper that was due on monday with the 75% that I had written yesterday. Cannot find file. What the fuck. I guess the computer gremlins got it because I KNOW I saved it and I am not exactly an ammature when it comes to computers. Spent the better part of an hour trying to locate the file - no success...guess I'll be rewriting it tonight, I'll be lucky to have any grade left by the time I get the thing handed in. Began writing my Shakespeare essay in Shakespeare class so I have no idea what I was actually supposed to learning. Almost passed out because of lack of food, energy and sleep so I skipped my next class to have some lunch...completed outline for Shakespeare paper while eating. Now I am typing in my blog because I am trying not to cry about how much work I have to do today/tonight...the good news is that tomorrow after my presentation in my 925am class, I am going to sleep. Real sleep that I won't wake from unless I'm dead (and even then...) I will wake up refreshed and revived at about 430/500pm so that I can go out to every bar in Lethbridge and celebrate my friend B's birthday...now that is a plan!